To be honest, when I was asked to come up with a student testimony, I had everything planned out. I knew what story I was going to tell, who would be in it, what would happen and so on. Turns out, God had a different plan for me — not that that is unusual for me. I cannot describe what God is doing in my life, for I do not exactly know myself. All I can say is that it is something deep. I know I am where I am because of God, and He will see me through the trials I am in.

My boyfriend, Christopher, is a very wise and strong man. He went through (and is still going through) some pretty hard times with personal relationships. When I met him, he blew me away. He was different, he was weird, he was… refreshing. I enjoyed spending time with him, and eventually our relationship continued to bloom. He introduced me to Christ on our very first date, and I accepted Christ a month later. I fell in love with him on a night when he stayed and comforted me when I was dealing with spiritual battles. It was 3 a.m., and I told him that I loved him. What I saw was a man that was going to help me through every spiritual battle that I was going to have, even every battle that we as a couple were going to encounter.

That was two and a half years ago. Now I am at a point in my life where I am learning how to stand on my own two feet with God standing right next to me. It has not been an easy two years, constant struggling with things of my past that want to invade this new life of mine. I never knew being a Christian was going to be so hard. I have kicked, screamed, cried, laughed, fallen and stood up, all in the name of God. I know that in this life, all I want to do is glorify God, but it is easier said than done. I often wonder if the things I am going through in my life are things that are unique, things that no one else has ever had to deal with, and that makes me feel alone. But then I remember lyrics from a favorite song of mine that remind me that I am not the only one going through what I am struggling with; God knows how I feel down to every last groan and He longs to help me with it, and I want to let Him. I have learned the value of God’s peace in my life and the need to seek Him out in everything. The more I seek out God in everything I do, the more I see Him work. Things become harder when I do not ask Him for help. He is an amazing God, and I see His miracles play out more and more everyday, the more I pray.

I think God is testing me right now in my life. Particularly in my relationship with Chris. God is trying to teach me patience, He is trying to tell me what true love is, and I have to admit, sometimes I do not listen very well, and I get in the way. He is trying to tell me it is time for me to help Chris get through his hardships, and he has blessed my broken road so that I would be able to help him. I have struggled and triumphed over what Chris is dealing with now — not the exact situation, but close enough. God is telling me I have the tools to help Chris do this. It is not a time to reflect on how much we love each other right now, but it is a time to help a best friend triumph over his trials. God has put me exactly where He wants me, and it is so uncomfortable to me, but now I know that being uncomfortable is a good thing.

So where am I at in my life? As I said before, I do not really know. All I know is that God is doing divine things inside of me, and I need to listen and obey, because what He has for us is so much more than our little minds can imagine.